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Site MapAt a glance - With summaries Note: All the pages on this web site are arranged in a particular order, as shown below, and that order is recommended for reading all the material, although many of the items will stand by themselves quite satisfactorily. But there are occasions when a dialogue does refer to something discussed in an earlier dialogue, and expands that idea, or continues to discuss it, so if you intend to read all the material, it is suggested that you do so in order. If you start at the Introduction, the links at the top and bottom of each page will direct you to the preceding or following entry in that sequence. A quick list of the contents appears immediately below, and a little lower down the page the items are relisted together with a brief summary of their contents (being added progressively). Update on the future of this web site Contents of web site (at a glance)Front page (this page): Top - Foreword - Site Map |--Photo of myself (short page with 54-Kb. jpg photo) |--Update on the future of this web site |--Introduction |--Glossary (introductory page and links) | |--A - B ( A B ) | |--C - G ( C D E F G ) | |--H - L ( H I J K L ) | +--M - Z ( M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z ) |--Other pages of (possible) spiritual interest (on main web site) | +--Dialogues |--1990 Jan. Tue., 9 |--1991 Jan. Sun., 13 |--1992 |--1993 |--Question asked of Sananda in Oct., 1993 |--Letter from my Higher Self (Feb., 1994, and later) |--Prayer - Sample of prayer used before all dialogues from Jun., 1994 onwards. |--1994 Jun. Mon., 13 Sat., 25 |--1994 Aug. Mon., 8 |--1994 Oct. Sat., 15 Sun., 16 Mon., 24 Wed., 26 |--1994 Nov. Tue., 1 Sat., 5 Sun., 13 Sat., 26 Sun., 27 Wed., 30 |--1995 Feb. Tue., 28 |--1995 Mar. Wed., 1 Mon., 6 Wed., 29 |--1995 Apr. Mon., 3 Sun., 9 |--1995 May Fri., 5 |--1995 Jun. Sat., 3 |--1995 Nov. Thu., 9 |--1996 Feb. Fri., 16 Sat., 17 |--1997 |--1998 Mar. Fri., 13 Sat., 14 |--1998 Apr. Fri., 3 |--1998 May Sat., 2 |--1998 Jul. Tue., 14 Sun., 19 |--1998 Sep. Tue., 22 Thu., 24 Fri., 25 Sat., 26 Mon., 28 |--1998 Dec. Thu., 24 |--1999 |--2000 Dec. Sat., 9 Sat., 16 |--2001 Oct. Wed., 3 |--2001 Nov. Fri., 2 |--2002 |--2003 +--2004 Contents of web site (with summaries)Go to a particular year: 1990 - 1991 - 1992 - 1993 - 1994 - 1995 - 1996 - 1997 - 1998 - 1999 - 2000 - 2001 - 2002 - 2003 - 2004 Front page (this page): Top - Foreword - Site Map (entire file, ca. 89 Kb.) Photo of myself (short page with 54-Kb. jpg photo) Introduction (ca. 21 Kb.) Glossary (introductory page and links) (ca. 16 Kb.) A - B (ca. 29 Kb.) ( A B ) C - G (ca. 43 Kb.) ( C D E F G ) H - L (ca. 39 Kb.) ( H I J K L ) M - Z (ca. 34 Kb.) ( M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z ) Other pages of (possible) spiritual interest (on main web site) Dialogues 1990 January Tuesday, 9 (ca. 50 Kb.) [ down to 1991 - up to Top of Summaries ] [Untitled foreword: discussion about who the participants in the dialogue are or might be - not so important whether counsellor is real or not; I might create him. Afterword: Explanation of strange remarks at the end of preceding foreword: sticky-beaks illegitimately prying into journal; daylight-saving time - defensive attitude behind these comments. The dialogue itself: Have Counsellor and I met before? - debate about whether he has a real name or not, and what that may imply - names are not fixed, spiritually - Counsellor appeared in earlier journals in other guises - he is never far from all that is dearest to me, will always be with me - his sentiments like my idea of a loving God, but I have doubts about their authenticity - writing this dialogue seems dull, and dialogues may not last long if this continues - this journal doesn't seem to have the dynamism of an earlier one - Counsellor tells me a different approach is needed now, and the old journal came to an end under its own weight - he suggests I take a more easy-going, spontaneous approach to this journal, and likens such an approach to automatic writing - as an example of just letting things go and being spontaneous, he suggests I ignore the mistakes caused by bad computer keyboard I'm using, and correct the mistakes afterwards - belief of some that journals should be written, not typed, is just a self-adopted limitation, and needn't apply.] 1991 January Sunday, 13 (ca. 67 Kb.) [ down to 1994 - up to 1990 ] 1992 (No dialogues for this year) 1993 (No dialogues for this year) Question asked of Sananda in October, 1993 (ca. 26 Kb.) [ I ask Sananda about my ascension, and about my spiritual doubts - he replies, describing my spiritual life with Hilarion in the Atlantean Temple of Truth, my escape to Greece with him and others, the recreation of the Temple of Truth there, my persecution for standing steadfastly for truth, which caused me in later incarnations to forget; but Sananda has come to call me and reawaken me to the truth I still stand for, for he will need me shortly; my doubts will pass and I will ascend in due course.] Letter from my Higher Self (February, 1994, and later) (ca. 232 Kb.) Prayer - Sample of prayer used before all dialogues from June, 1994 onwards. (ca. 10 Kb.) 1994 June Monday, 13 (ca. 70 Kb.) [ down to 1995 - up to 1991 ] 1994 June Saturday, 25 (ca. 55 Kb.) 1994 August Monday, 8 (ca. 56 Kb.) 1994 October Saturday, 15 (ca. 173 Kb.) 1994 October Sunday, 16 (ca. 25 Kb.) 1994 October Monday, 24 (ca. 49 Kb.) 1994 October Wednesday, 26 (ca. 45 Kb.) 1994 November Tuesday, 1 (ca. 31 Kb.) 1994 November Saturday, 5 (ca. 50 Kb.) 1994 November Sunday, 13 (ca. 117 Kb.) 1994 November Saturday, 26 (ca. 16 Kb.) 1994 November Sunday, 27 (ca. 38 Kb.) 1994 November Wednesday, 30 (ca. 22 Kb.) 1995 February Tuesday, 28 (ca. 17 Kb.) [ down to 1996 - up to 1994 ] 1995 March Wednesday, 1 (ca. 60 Kb.) 1995 March Monday, 6 (ca. 41 Kb.) 1995 March Wednesday, 29 (ca. 52 Kb.) 1995 April Monday, 3 (ca. 44 Kb.) 1995 April Sunday, 9 (ca. 40 Kb.) 1995 May Friday, 5 (ca. 71 Kb.) 1995 June Saturday, 3 (ca. 84 Kb.) 1995 November Thursday, 9 (ca. 78 Kb.) 1996 February Friday, 16 (ca. 23 Kb.) [ down to 1998 - up to 1995 ] 1996 February Saturday, 17 (ca. 61 Kb.) 1997 (No dialogues for this year) 1998 March Friday, 13 (ca. 90 Kb.) [ down to 2000 - up to 1996 ] 1998 March Saturday, 14 (ca. 94 Kb.) 1998 April Friday, 3 (ca. 156 Kb.) 1998 May Saturday, 2 (ca. 66 Kb.) 1998 July Tuesday, 14 (ca. 100 Kb.) 1998 July Sunday, 19 (ca. 75 Kb.) 1998 September Tuesday, 22 (ca. 144 Kb.) [ Life seems dark, and this prompts this session - approaching death makes achievement and life itself seem pointless, so I'm losing spirituality and living just for the moment - Bivalia assures me that non-material accomplishments such as ones I want to make survive into the next world, so I should try to continue with them - 1st reason (of 2) for fear of death: it may be painful or preceded by horrible illness - because of this, I believe in euthanasia - this may not be usual of spiritual people, but Bivalia says not to worry about that, and to be honest about my own beliefs - Bivalia says Spirit is not so condemning, and draws analogy with anaesthesia, which religious people once condemned, but approve of now - even if karma decrees that people should have pain, it doesn't detract from one's right to avoid pain by any available means, although euthanasia or suicide could delay the spiritual projects you came to earth to work on - 2nd reason for fear of death: I don't know what, if anything, comes after death - Bivalia says inner spiritual awareness would remedy that; but meanwhile, until that can be acquired, it is necessary to somehow find a sense of purpose in life - conflict between inner awareness of spirituality and scientific attitude which demands evidence, which I often believe, although hate - post-modernism may come to the rescue, in saying that many views of life are possible, and the scientific one is only one of these - Bivalia agrees partly with post-modernism, but not to the extent of anything goes; but people have to decide for themselves what criteria to use for acceptability - my own spiritual outlook has a magic I prize, which the scientific view doesn't - Bivalia doesn't want to intellectually debate the matter, but leaves me with a thought: according to science, all life is essentially hugely complex chemical machinery, run by a biological computer (the brain) which is created by a biological computer program (the genes); this view leaves no room for consciousness or feelings, which are unaccountable for in this view of things - while this doesn't prove the reality of spirit, it does at least show it to be a credible hypothesis - I have another argument against the existence of Spirit: unlike science, which progresses, and wrong ideas get weeded out, religion and spirituality never progress, competing ideas remain just as chaotic as before - Bivalia says this is an argument against putting too much faith in mere dogma, and that my objection wrongly applies the scientific method to spiritual concepts - an alternative spiritual outlook to having, and defending, a series of dogmas, is to view spirituality as exploring various ideas open-mindedly - to my objection that maybe I do have some dogmas, Bivalia points out they are weak, because I'm not certain of them, and they are open to revision upon learning new information; and also, without having cosmic consciousness, it is not possible to be totally free of some degree of dogma except by having no thoughts on the subject at all - to my point that my view, one of thousands, still doesn't seem likely to be true, Bivalia points out that the nature of truth is that is filtered through our own coloured glasses, and appears different to everyone - following my own path is lonely, and I long for people with a similar outlook - Bivalia replies that following your own path is in the long run a shorter path to your destination - I see less now of people of similar outlook, but some say being part of a spiritual community is important - Bivalia says that some churches are too group-oriented and that this does not give individual experience its due - Shirley R.'s involvement in a group that claims to be the sole source of the best path to cosmic consciousness - this exclusive attitude rings warning bells - people in this group who suggested I ask Bivalia about what they're doing might have expected him to agree with their outlook, but he has reservations, not about what they're doing, but their exclusive claims - I started doing stuff with the group, but got hung up because I couldn't follow all the steps they prescribed in the right order, and it puts me off - the group claims their activities will spark off a mass change in consciousness, like the hundredth monkey effect - I'm less close to Shirley because of her preoccupation with the group's particular process; to me it is just another in a whole string of New-Age fads such as Ascension a few years before - Bivalia says to be open to changing trends, but not to be dependent on them - I see possibility that spirituality is a pretence to cover the reality of death - Bivalia says even if this is so, continue with it, because it might help me, and gives a parallel from a C. 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Lewis novel - Reading Beethoven concerto scores prompted thoughts related to life, death, and other deep matters - Dreams give me feel of Beethoven's great love; maybe it indicates past contact with him, but I'm sceptical of that - Bivalia says real truth is not threatened by scepticism - my scepticism as a "bullshit detector" - thoughts prompted by reading scores: memories of my Adelaide years in childhood, of my father; my father dead now, and I didn't get on well with him; my grandmother dead too, and my family gradually getting eaten up by death, and life feels emptier because of it - death still painful, in spite of assurances about the after-life - Bivalia is with my relatives, and they send their love - Dad's message to me through Bivalia: don't worry about quarrels, it's a stage we all go through; he was very touched by absent healing I gave him, and was helped by books about the after-life I lent him; appreciated my bringing classical music to him when I was a child; he wants to catch up with me in the next life - I plan to go to Adelaide to visit old friends, see old places - magic spots in or near Adelaide - places do have a spirit - nature is important spiritually - analogy with Aboriginal sacred sites - as Bivalia praises my spirituality, I worry about us becoming a nmutual admiration society, to which he replies one should feel good about one's higher self - magic places also in pictures in books; examples from childhood astronomy book, tying in with magic I've always seen in things in the sky - this doesn't spoil Bivalia's explanation that places have spirit, because making up a scene, as in a picture, creates it on the astral plane, and what you are feeling about it is therefore real on some higher level - Bivalia suggests I invoke Dad's presence when I visit Adelaide because of our shared memories there; may be very healing for both of us - longing for something maybe spiritual seems linked to old memories, family; is that longing related to closeness to others, which I mostly lack? - Bivalia's answer: yes to a degree, but it's not the be-all and end-all; the longing is also largely for that which is not in this world; don't marry just to satisfy it - I seem to lack love, motivation to start a family, probably because of my autism; Bivalia says I don't lack love, but express it differently, and it is not my role in this life to marry and have a family - I think maybe it hasn't been one of the best sessions, but Bivalia thinks I shouldn't judge it - Because I started the session a little half-heartedly, Bivalia suggests that over the next few days I do a short dialogue every day, and just say whatever comes; it will get me used to relating to him in a more everyday manner, and will help me relate to him as a close friend, as well as a counsellor - I'm not all that keen, but agree to try it - must go to sleep; should try to get less nocturnal so I can enjoy things like sunrise and dawn flowers in Adelaide; reference to Basho haiku about dawn flowers. ] 1998 September Thursday, 24 (ca. 32 Kb.) [ Been watching film Jurassic Park - film music very noble, but dinosaurs aren't - moral in film about Man interfering with natural forces he doesn't understand - bringing back dinosaurs would drag earth down by flooding it with gross vibrations - lower astral entities would love to reincarnate as dinosaurs - another theme I saw in the film was overdependence on computers and automation, because it was the breakdown of automation that largely caused the trouble in Jurassic Park, the island where dinosaurs were recreated in the film - doubts about the success of this attempt through daily sessions to become friendly with my Higher Self in an everyday kind of way, because I'm not going about all day talking to my Higher Self - Bivalia replies that it is not unsuccessful at all: until you reach a sufficiently high level of consciousness, it would be quite unmanageable to go about your daily life constantly chatting with your Higher Self - in fact, he says the Higher Self has a duty not to interfere gratuitously in a person's daily life - I reflect that my dialogues may be little more than a way of keeping a diary - Bivalia says it's a very good way of keeping a diary - keeping a diary is a good way of reflecting on deeper matters in a society that allows little time or encouragement for slowing down and reflecting on things - doesn't matter if I'm not really channelling my Higher Self in the dialogues; if I'm just making it up, it's still drawing me closer to my Higher Self and to Spirit - Bivalia can't give me easy answers, but has to help me find them myself, and get inner awareness - the only other alternative is unquestioning acceptance from outside authorities - my asking the questions is more important than what answers I get - need before channelling to do a ritual to invoke protection conflicts with spontaneity Bivalia wants me to develop with him - Bivalia thinks I'm experienced enough at getting in touch with him that I could relax if I want to share something with him spontaneously, but a ritual is still good because it helps me focus on Spirit - he would advice more caution though for something new, such as channelling another being or doing astral travelling - the three ladies doing the process say you shouldn't ask for protection because it's acknowledging separateness, and there's nothing to fear if we're all one - Bivalia's reply: try telling that to people suffering greatly. ] 1998 September Friday, 25 (ca. 21 Kb.) [ I'm starting to feel the strain of writing a dialogue every day - I stayed another night with my mother to finish repairing one of her books, and because I wanted to see another film on T.V. the following night - I saw The Blob a week ago, and seem to have a fascination for horror stories - the further film I wanted to see was The Secret Garden, about a girl sent to live with an uncle, who befriends a crippled boy and finds a walled garden that used to belong to her now-dead aunt - some critics disapprove of happy endings such as that in The Secret Garden, because it's not realistic; but I think they appeal precisely because it gives us vicariously what real life usually cannot - if I let myself, I might even cry at the movies or over a good book, but that's silly with fictional characters - Bivalia questions that, saying it's valid because the characters are archetypes for real-life people in similar roles, and you are crying for the tragedy in real life, or cheering for the good in the world - when I worry about running out of things to say in dialogues, Bivalia advises me not to worry, but to just let come what wants to. ] 1998 September Saturday, 26 (ca. 18 Kb.) [ I repeat that daily sessions are becoming a strain - say this because I can't think of anything to say, and Bivalia says let's talk it through - I say it feels as if I'm making up the dialogue, not channelling, that it's a great big wank - Bivalia replies that if it is spiritual masturbation, that's not such a bad thing if it stimulates something useful in the dialogue - I laugh, he says that's a better response; anything to prod me out of my excessive self-criticism - Bivalia says make the sessions shorter if I think going on is a wank, but it might be better to work through it, and the purpose of a wank is to stimulate oneself, which is a good thing if one is at a low point - I find using a sexual metaphor for spiritual things strange, but Bivalia defends it, saying that sex can be spiritual, and one doesn't need to adopt the negative attitudes to it that some churches promote; and I agree with that - I'm playing at the Church of Antioch in the morning - don't feel fully committed because I find their attitude rigid and harsh in some ways - recent sessions getting shorter, and Bivalia makes light of it by joking about sessions of negative length. ] 1998 September Monday, 28 (ca. 15 Kb.) [ A few odd comments about my day, including getting electioneering letters from politicians - gas plant explosion affecting availability of milk and bread - I noticed that today was the first summery day of the season - Bivalia thinks my tendency to notice the moods of nature keeps me in touch with Spirit - still have doubts about daily sessions, and a reluctance to clog up the files with ephemeral chit-chat - Bivalia suggests putting these dialogues in separate files. ] 1998 December Thursday, 24 (ca. 69 Kb.) [ I don't like rituals of Christmas - Bivalia suggests that they may be an expression of love, in spite of the less desirable aspects - just as I recognize various spirits, especially natural ones, Bivalia says there is a Christmas spirit, which may not be all that different from what people mean by the colloquial phrase "Christmas spirit" - suggests I could focus on those parts of the Christmas spirit I find congenial, and consider them a "true" Christmas spirit; but I just don't have much feel for it at all - I've been feeling apart from Spirit, but close again the last few days, and this prompted 3 more haiku verses on 3 successive days about twilight, which I saw 3 times in a row - I describe the evenings which prompted the verses, how they evoked old memories when I was preoccupied with heavenly phenomena - even then, I sensed spirit in such things - the verses focus both on the similarity and the slight differences between those successive twilights, and suggested to me that truth itself evolves and changes - Bivalia agrees, suggests even God is still evolving - the twilights reminded me of two basic kinds of world-view, spiritually - 1st view is cyclic: things occur in eternal cycles, such as reincarnation; I resonate with parts of this, but dislike the inclusion of pain as part of the cycles - 2nd view is based on one-off events, singularities: like Christianity, with creation, final judgement, eternal destiny in heaven or hell; I dislike parts of this, too, and seek a happy medium between the cyclic and once-only views of spirit - Bivalia agrees that truth may exist in both views - this dichotomy prompted the 3rd haiku - Bivalia says the way higher realms of spirit are interwoven with cycles and things that happen only once means that fears some have that heaven would be boring are unfounded - things would conclude, and you'd have fulfilment, but you could always start new things - doubts about whether I'll see a 4th twilight on Christmas day, but Bivalia suggests things happen in threes - while it may be a fairy-tale idea, such things often have a foundation in truth - my haiku may not be authentic in style, but express Spirit - I quote several haiku from earlier in the year - I relate depressive episode that prompted one haiku about a moonlit sky I saw - Bivalia says natural beauty nourishes one spiritually even if one doesn't respond to it at the time - would like to have written the haiku in a more uplifting way, but couldn't - the thing we long for, which nature can suggest, will always be there; it's in God, or spirit, and there is no hurry - another haiku started to come to mind, but never got finished, and I quote the notes I wrote for it - I heard Sister Veronica Brady say on the radio that poetry is not self-expression, but seems to think it is spiritual, and Bivalia and I disagree with the first part, and believe that self-expression and spirituality are not mutually exclusive - also heard Michael Screech on the history of laughter in religion, often not nice laughter - he thought the idea of eternal damnation was terrible, even for someone like Hitler, and thought God was much kinder than he is sometimes depicted - Michael Screech thought that justice and good were so great that God himself fits in with them because he is just and good, and not merely defined as "whatever God does" - Bivalia and I inclined to agree with this, but it does lead to paradox, whereas the other view seems very arbitrary and unsatisfactory - Bivalia suggests the paradox is a mere word-game, and results from having too human-like an image of God - if we see God not merely as a human-like figure, but as the spirit of all that is good and just, the essence of it, it might resolve the paradox, and in a sense both views expressed by Screech might be true - Bivalia sees this as an example of the idea that with many of the old theological debates, both sides are true, and it's a matter of the perspective from which you see the matter - it's been a good dialogue, but Bivalia warns me against judging dialogues as good or bad. ] 1999 (No dialogues for this year) 2000 December Saturday, 9 (ca. 50 Kb.) [ down to 2001 - up to 1998 ] [ Definition of millennium - not using "Bivalia" now, Higher-Self names generally, how to refer to one's Higher Self - talking with God vs. talking with one's Higher Self, not as different as it may seem - why I haven't had a dialogue recently, spiritual darkness as a reason - having completed move from Trumper St., feel freer now - inevitability or otherwise of spiritual growth with all humans - fear that if I had another dialogue, my Higher Self wouldn't perform up to scratch and I would be disillusioned; my Higher Self's response to this - Spirit doesn't judge channellings, and nor should I - something I want to mention which might challenge my Higher Self's ability to inspire me - don't regard my Higher Self's words as dogma or as infallible - just do dialogues as pretence if I can't really believe in my Higher Self.] 2000 December Saturday, 16 (ca. 23 Kb.) [ Saying "Higher Self" feels funny - Beethoven's birthday, Beethoven still composing in higher dimensions - channelled information can always be flawed - went out to buy something, ate, and felt the spirit of summer - Higher Self assures me my spiritual awareness is not as poor as it sometimes seems - dialogues with myself as a way of keeping spiritual awareness alive - it might be better if more adults had child-like habits.] 2001 October Wednesday, 3 (ca. 92 Kb.) [ down to 2004 - up to 2000 ] 2001 November Friday, 2 (ca. 113 Kb.) 2002 (No dialogues for this year) 2003 (No dialogues for this year) 2004 ( No dialogues yet for this year ) [ up to 2001 ] |
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Areas on my main web site of possible spiritual interestOther pages of (possible) spiritual interest (on main web site) Haiku ( How I discovered haiku and came to write them myself ) Page 1 Notes on the Verses Page 2 Notes on the Verses Page 3 Notes on the Verses Page 4 Notes on the Verses Stories Twilight Woods Comments on Twilight Woods |
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